It is my pleasure to host Karen Ingalls today. Please welcome Karen and lets support her by leaving a comment, sharing this post and purchasing her book. And now….
Today’s interview is with Murray Clark (aka Michael St Germain).
He is the main character from Novy’s Son, The Selfish Genius.
- Mr. Clark, you had to move three times and change schools when you were a young lad. How did you feel about those major changes?
The first time I was scared and angry. I was only five and did not understand why having a new brother or sister would mean I had to leave my parents and home. But, I loved Uncle Leon and Aunt Helen and I had a good time there.
- You had jealousy with your brother, Richard. Did you ever resolve those feelings?
I don’t think my brother or dad knew about my jealousy though my mother did. And, I still have jealousy of him. He seemed so perfect, likable and smart. He could do no wrong. If he had lived a full life, I suppose he and Helen would have married and told Karen the truth of her birth. I don’t think I could have stood for that.
- What made your relationship with Grace so special?
She was the first and only woman with whom I could be totally myself. She was smart, beautiful, and a good listener. As I look back she reminded me of my mother though they did not look alike. Her life was cut short and I will always be angry about that.
- Who are you angry at? You appear to be angry with so many people and events throughout your life.
I had to give this question a lot of thought. In the end, I guess I am angry that my life was so hard. My dad was so strict and no matter what I did it not seem to please him. And, if there is a God (which I do not think there is) I am very angry at Him. He caused the early deaths of Uncle Leon, Aunt Helen, and Grace all of whom I loved. And I am angry that He took Richard at such a young age from which Dad never recovered.
- A final question: Do you think you were a good father to Joan and Karen?
I wish I could answer that with a yes. I was a better father to Karen, but as I look back I was wrong to disown Joan. I should have tried to work things out with her, but I had so much going against me. Her mother hated me and was always doing things to put a wedge between my daughters and me.
I regret how I treated Karen those last years. I see now that she always acted in my best interest and did everything possible to help me. I blamed her for my finances, health, and living situation the last years of my life.
With all my faults as a father, I did love my daughters and tried to do the best I knew how.
Karen Ingalls is a retired registered nurse with a master’s degree in human development, which was a double major in psychology and human services. She is the author of the award winning book, Outshine: An Ovarian Cancer Memoir from which all proceeds are donated to gynecologic cancer research. Her second novel is Davida: Model & Mistress of Augustus Saint-Gaudens. Her first novel, Novy’s Son challenges the reader to examine the issues of alcoholism, sexual addiction, and family dynamics. She has also written poetry, short stories, and has had articles published for professional journals. Karen also does presentations to promote her books and on subjects of health/wellness.
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